been a while

I haven't posted in a long time. To be honest, I didn't know what to write because I wasn't as angry as usual. I'm still not, but I've realised that I don't need to be angry to blog.

Dying2bthin, don't feel bad about me changing the colour, it's no problem, I was having trouble reading it too. I feel very privilaged to have someone so interested in my blog, thank you.

To forgeinobject, or B. Thank you so very much for your comment. I'm glad you managed to turn your life around, and I'm glad you've managed to join so many others in doing good in the world, that fills me with great hope for the future. Therapy has helped me alot, purely for the fact that I had someone to just spill it out too. I was able to speak plainly. I'm naturally quite an open person, you know? I don't really have a problem talking about things. I like to talk.

Something else that has really helped me is just basically getting back interested in things that I've loved all my life, like martial arts, films, acting etc.

I'm currently reading a book called 'The Open Road' which is about the Dalai Lama. It's very good, very insightful and thought-provoking. The Dalai Lama seems to me to be very, very wise.

I've made great progress I think. I had a little falling out with my manager at work. Even half a year ago, if that had happened to me I would've quit within seconds. But it didn't really even cross my mind. I didn't quit.
And I am very proud of myself for that. It shows that I am getting past the things in my past that have held me back for so long, and I really feel that I'm getting somewhere.

I have finally decided once and for all exactly what I wanna do with my life, which is a great step I think. I know I've said about being an actor and film maker before but now I really know it's what I wanna do, for absolute sure. I had a few lingering doubts but now I'm certain it's the best path for me.

I really want to learn Kung Fu, but unfortuntely I can't afford the transportation to lessons at the moment, so I'll be learning Tae Kwon Do instead. I'm also looking into Kendo.

Hopefully I'll be able to persue my love of Kung Fu at University.

19 days until I'm 18. Kind of scary. I'll be an 'adult' once and for all. I'll have to truly take responsibilty and everything. It's huge but...it comes to all of us, right?

Still, I'm kind of looking forward to it now. It will give me more freedom to do what I need to do. People don't really take you seriously about things when you're a 'kid'. At least after I'm 18 I'll have more of a chance to do the things I want to do.

I always get childishly excited when it comes to christmas though. Great time of year ^_^

Anyways, I've gotta go to work soon, so I'll leave it there.

I hope everyone's doing great. Here's a little japanese proverb for you, "Fall down seven times, stand up eight."
Basically don't give up. And here's my favourite chinese one, which everyone should know. "Yesterday is history, tomorrow's a mystery, but today is a gift. That is why it's called the present."

Keep smiling everyone, even when it hurts xXx