I'm feeling better than I did when I wrote my last post.

The docs went okay, actually better than okay. She said she'd refer me to the adult psych people and she was gonna try and get them to skip the first and hopefully second stage as well. She also said that the reason I don't have periods more than two or three times a year is a thing called polycistic ovarian syndrome. There are blood tests and ultrasounds and stuff I can get done to confirm it which I will probably do but it puts my mums mind at rest.

Anyway, there's not much else to report. Been spending my days watching tv and well into the night. I usually go to bed around 2 or 3 AM. Usually I'll watch stuff downstairs until late and then when I want to go to bed I put Supernatural on because my mum got the first season, so I watch probably 4 episodes of that until I know I'll fall asleep and then I turn everything off and go to sleep. If I lie in bed before the point of my eyes hurting because I'm tired, then I won't go to sleep, I'll just lie there thinking about everything which is NOT good so I have to make sure I'm at a certain point of tiredness before I can even try.

And it's a pain in the arse having to watch TV cos I hate adverts but if I'm not watching something then I'm thinking and that's not good. It's the only thing that stops my brain.

Which sucks because I would actually sometimes like to have a life.

Paul, the conducter at Band, he said that I could take my time learning the pieces and everything so that I wasn't under so much pressure and that if I ever wanted to talk I could call him. I thought that was majorly sweet.

Dunno what else to say really. I've been checking out Acting degrees but I guess I shouldn't bother with that kind of thing yet.

so yeah. That's it for now.