Apology etc

Okay, I'd just like to say something to the 9 followers of this blog and anyone else who might occasionally glance at it.

I'd like to apologise for my ranting and raving and generally pessimistic attitude on here. I do have a tendancy to see the bad side.

I'm in a...shall we say 'placid' mood right now. I had another good night at work and here's something I completely forgot to say in my previous post.
Last night when I got home my mum showed me an email she'd recieved. It was for me. I read it through and my heart skipped a beat. It was from Antony Micallef. I don't know if anyone here has heard of him but he's like...my top favourite artist. My mum happens to work with his dad. So anyways, this email...it says he's flattered that I like his work so much and that he'd like to see some of MY paintings if I didn't mind and that if I wanted he'd get the gallery to send me his book!!!!

To say I'm stoked is like the biggest understatement.

So yeah, I'm in a good mood.

I know it can be a bit of a chore to read my posts when I'm bitching about the state of things, and I'm sorry for that, but like I've said before, I need to get it out of me because if I don't, I tend to explode and take it out on people around me, especially my mum and I can't stand hurting her. I would literally be dead without her and though that doesn't particularly scare me as sometimes I wish I was dead (and no that's not some sore attempt for attention or sympathy vote, I feel no shame or anything remotely wrong with admitting that sometimes I'd rather die than stay here), I love my mother very much. I have only two very extremely close friends that I could tell anything to and she's one of them. She sits in on my therapy sessions and everything, and I know I'd be completely lost without her.

She's an angel. My other angel is my best friend Hope, who is also who I want to date, I believe I've mentioned her before. I beleive in angels, don't know how the rest of you feel about them, but I beleive in them, and I truly believe Hope and my mum are angels. They must be to be able to put up with me. They guide me, they care for me.

So yeah, I keep getting sidetracked, I just wanted to apologise. I'm not gonna lie, there will probably be many more ranty pessimistic posts in the future, but I'd just like to say right now that I don't post them to upset anyone. Anything I write on here is just what's in my head at the time.

So yeah...just wanted to say that.

Hope all's going well for everyone.

xXx