Fat piggy the FAT FAILURE

I am nothing. I am shit! I am the biggest failure in the world. I am fat and I will always be fat if I don't get myself under control!

I've binged two days in a row and failed at making myself sick both times.

So as of tomorrow, no more ABC diet, no more food, no more anything. I am done with this shit! I am NOT gonna die fat and you know what? I don't even give a shit about that anymore.

I am done with everything. Friends that don't know me, family that don't have a clue about who I am, no one knows me, not who I really am. No one knows me and I am done in this shit hole. I hate college, I hate my friends, I hate my family and I hate me. I hate my life.

I know this is probably sounding really fucking whiny at the moment but I don't really care. It's my blog so I can whine as much as I fucking want to!

If you don't like my whining fuck off somewhere else. I've had it. I'm so sick of being sweet and polite to people only to be treated like shit.
I'm sick of trying to explain myself and how I feel when no one's listening and no one gives a shit.

I'm sick of feeling guilty that there are so many horrible things happening in the world that I can't do a damn thing about.

I'm sick of everything!

I don't even want food anymore, not because I want to be thin, even though I do really still want to be thin, it's not about that anymore. I just don't wanna eat.
I don't want to DO anything.
I want to fade away.
I want out. Right now!