I can't sleep, so what's new...
I've been getting a headache on and off all day and I really want to sleep. Got college tomorrow...well technically it's today... until half five with a stupid three hour break in the middle, but I might just hide out in the town library until it's time to go home. Luckily thursdays are my night off so at least I don't have to worry about work.
So I made up with my mum over that stupid bloody letter. I'm not sure how serious she thinks I am but...I'll show everyone when the time comes.
My mind is eating me alive.
I'm probably gonna get kicked out of college if I keep missing lessons. I don't care though. I don't care about any of it.
It's irrelevant. I don't know what I want to do. I wish I could go away somewhere, just hide away by myself until I've figured my head out. I can't deal with the shit that goes on in my head alongside the rest of life in general.
It's too...mashed up together...life just makes it worse.
It would be easier just to turn it all off and make it all stop.
I can't take it anymore and I know how much of a bullshitting cliche that is, but it's true.
I can't do this. It's not my life, not me. I'm not that girl, I'm not that person, not that brain or that heart or that soul.
Nothing. It's nothing to do with me. I want no part in it. Trade seats, sell the ticket, no money back guarantee.
Rather sad really, but there it is.
Fuck it, no one's ever gonna get it.
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